As the days grow shorter and our schedules grow busier, it can be hard to find the motivation to do the important things. Instead we rush around to events, doing Christmas shopping and the other activities that consume our precious time. And we wonder why we may seem unhappy or exhausted. We push aside our bodies and our spiritual needs in an effort to get things done.
This month I am trying to balance my activities with my personal time with God and “me” time. It sure can be difficult! As I’m spending my “me” time I’m just thinking of all the things that need done, or that I could be doing. How difficult it can be to just enjoy the moment. I was reading one of Ann Voskamp’s devotionals this week and was shocked by what my brain did. I was reading how we fail to live in the moment, and how our brain takes and wants control of our time. I read this and thought, “Hmm, that’s right! I need to claim back that control and just ‘be’!” And as I was thinking this and coming up with my game plan, I realized I was still reading and was approaching the end of that day’s devotional. I had no clue what I had just read, since my mind was wandering. I just laughed and had to go back and reread it all. And this time try to just read.
It’s so silly how our culture has taught us the “skill” of multitasking and needing to rush to accomplish all our marks on the to do list. We try to make up time by driving quickly to get somewhere, rushing in and out of stores, needing quick meals so we can move on to the next errand. But instead, we lose time and those precious moments that go along with them. How can we find God in our rushing and moving along? How can we fully take in the moments of splendor and beauty he gives us every day?
I used to compete with my dad when I was little with how fast we could eat our meals. The first one done had completed the chore quickly so we could be the first to eat our dessert and move on to watch TV or play a game. It was fun and I took joy in our family always watching me eat at holiday meals, saying things like “Amy’s done already!” or “She’s on to seconds when I haven’t even finished getting my plate full!” Well, times have changed, and I have learned to slow it down a bit. It has certainly taken many years and much patience and discipline with myself to sit, think about eating slowly, putting down my fork and actually trying to taste the flavours of my food. But, I must say, I really do enjoy my meals more. I find more joy in the things I was missing before- the people whom I’m eating with, the beautiful designs of the napkin and the aromas of the food. Sometimes going a little slower at things doesn’t waste time, but can give us some extra time to discover God and the beauty of creation that we hadn’t seen before.